My latest addiction~

So this is love in the end of december
Quiet nights
Quiet stars
And I'm here Monday to Sunday 'cause you're fragile and I'm weak

So you fall when the nights grow longer into sleep
You won't wake up and I'm here
I'm sitting beside you and I'll wait until the spring

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
Don't worry about me
You know me better than that

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
I'll catch you if you would fall

So you drift when the days grow colder
Away from me and won't look back
Far away
And I can't guide you but I'm here 'til the spring

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
Don't worry about me
You know me better than that

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
I'll catch you if you would fall

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
Don't worry about me
You know me better than that

Don't you worry
I'll be there for you
I'll catch you if you would fall
I'll catch you if you would fall

My safe place on earth...

So today, i guess i'm pretty bored right now and like...has thoughts in my head that i shouldnt have?

I feel like im just boothering people today and is like...annoying towards everybody, dont really know why.
I guess i have a problem ..with..whats it called..acceptens?
i've never really felt accepted with anybody and kind of always assume that they think im annoying etc.
I just feel like hiding in my bed all day listening to some music or watch a good movie like..maybe horror...and just..shut out the rest od the world, has that feeling ever gotten in to your mind? wanting to shut everybody and everything else out, i mean.

maybe thats what i will do tomorrow? shut the world out and just ...hide inside my room where everything feels safe^^
unfourtunally that wont work..i have to work tomorrow and clean tha stupid office xD
but hey i cant complian, i get paid :3

anyways...i think im gonna actully go make myself some hot chocolate or take a glass of cola and just ..watch a horror movie and maybe keep chatting with the people im talking with right now and just forgett about my insecurities..and just..be the usual good old me?:)

a song i've been basically been addicted to all day o.o ..

Say hi to....

life...

So today i started to read one of my favorite models blogs who has been dead for..well soon a year in november 19th. I have to admitt that the thoughts she had..and the way she expressed herself i got kind of...a little scared in a way because sometime they felt really really dark... although my thoughts can be really really dark to so who am i to judge? + i like people that are a little bit dark and not rainbows and sunshine all the time.
But with her ...i dont know there is something with her darkness that...she was really like..just really honest with what she was writing.

now about the models blog that i've been reading....her name ...is..DAUL KIM (r.i.p.)
she hung herself when she was 20 years old in november 19th 2009 in paris (france).
She was suffering from depression and frustration for a long time (she often wrote about them in her blog or "showed" it in her paintings).

She seemed like a very good, nice and very funny girl though. She was very diffrent and had a very uniqe look i think. Although i dont like to speak ill of the dead i have to say she seemed very negative about alot of things that was but again..her sharing the negative thoughts she has makes her more real and honest if you ask me so..xD


her last post on her blog wich was on the same day she took her life she named "say hi to forever" and in that post she put up a video that jim rivera's song "i go deep" and wrote " jim rivers best track forever"

Now all i have to say...REST IN PEACE DAULMONSTER <3

Dentist......ish..

My day have been pretty good today...i didnt start school before 11 and then it was done 2 :3
but ...since i had to go to the dentist it took me longer to get home PLUS..my dentist..so not okey..XD

I walked in there and like...maybe im oversensetvie but she didnt wear gloves on when she put her hands in my mouth... and that felt rly like..RLY ...no..its just..NOT OKEY XD

i finally brought myself to check out wheesungs song " I even thought of marriage".
At first i was like...i didnt wanna listen to it so i kept ignoring it but then..it was like ALWAYS there on my list of updates XD

and i was like..right now im asking myself why i didnt check it out in the first place because it is actually really good o_o..XD

check it out?:)