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My night thoughts.


Take my hand and lets fly away to the land of dreams where there's nothing else but peace, love, happyness and calmness.

Tonight I literally felt my own heart break to a thousands of peices.
I hide my pain inside the many layers of jokes and laughters.
And i guess...its kind of obviouse, my biggest problem though is that whenever i feel sad or depressed my body gets ill too, i get sick when im sad and its really not good, but there's not much i can do about it either.

I feel like my heart and soul is broken in a bunch of peices and i would love to fix them all but..i guess its easier to say that "im going to get happy, just give me some time" but what we all dont get is that..happyness is a mood that we honestly dont feel all that much, and its not a destination, you cant wish to get happy because we always find something that makes us sad and makes us selfdestruct.

God createt the earths biggest threat, the humans.
And we humans are either busy destroying eachother or ourselves.

We fear things and we always look down on ourselves
We want what we cant have
We hide our sadness with shallowness and by trying to get confirmation by others.
Like for us girls, we destroy eachother and search for guys to tell us that we're good enough.

We work so hard on being everything, especially us girls.
us girls this is what most people think we should be, even we try to follow it.
we're not supposed to be fat and definitly not too thin
not smart but not dumb
friendly but not too friendly
dont be a whore, but dont be a prude either.
look good but not to good.
stand out but not so much that people will notice you too much
and ofcourse the golden rule, be yourself, but make sure you fit in.

We people are proberbly the funniest and most retarded thing out there, arent we?
we hide our true feelings and ways by covering it up with the complete opposite.
We hide our desperation for love and confirmation by hornyness and shallowness.
We want to be the best without standing out to much
We dont want people to talk trash about us but still do it towards others.

i gotta feeling...

that i want to chop off my freaking left leg and arm!!!!

Srsly...I was on my way to the buss station, and since my buss was supposed to go in like...4 minutes i decided to run, NOT A GOOD IDEA...just saying...
I fell on the snow..ice..street, whatever, what's important here is that i fell and like..now..my left hand and leg is in extreeeme pain its like..not even funny how much it hurts D:

Someone wanna chop it off for me?:D

Almost figured out

Helloow~

So I'm at school right now...sitting in my ...well..computer class, trying to listen to my stuttering teacher.
But mosly im just ...doing other things on the computer being on Facebook, youtube etc.

But anyways so I've been thinking alot about what i want to do after im done studying and i've talked alot with teachers at my school that i really wanted to study abroad in countries like..Japan or South Korea.
But then one of my teachers told med about this "travel and teach" program.
Which is that you can basically go to a contry like south korea and teach english.
english teachers is definitly needed in asian countries too so this thing really got me going, i'm studiyng more than ever now just because i want to be able to do ..well hopefully both of these things :)

You think i could make it as an english teacher in south korea or japan?:)
I got two and a half years left before i graduate though..so i can train my ass off at being able to EXPLAIN english :D

Say Hi To ....

SATAN!!!!!!


haha naah, just kidding. (..yes this is pretty much lame humor but thats me i guess ..stay tuned and you will see more of it :))

So anyways, right now i feel like well..i'm not going to get my weekend D:
or well ..i am but still not O.o
So today some of my mom's and her boyfriends coming over with their daughter who is about the same age as one of my little brothers proberbly ( about 5-6 maybe..)
and well..i dont really feel like joining them but then again, i have to because thats the cruelity of life i guess... :)

And then tomorrow I'm supposed to babysit my neighbours daughter for like..from 2.30 till 12.00 in the night, so yeah..thats for a long time..hopefully i can bring my computer though :)
because their daughter is VERY diciplined so there wont be so much problems there, i've babysitted her before too :)

Say Hi To....

The most wonderful song forever and ever.....

Say Hi To....

ME A COUPLE OF WONDERFUL YEARS BACK

Say Hi to..

Long Time No See Friend~


It's been a long time since I wrote something here, but honestly i've been swamped with homework, home situations and work.

YES I work :), and well a lot of my friends always get shocked by the fact that i'm working because well it isn't really that common in Sweden that girls(or boys) in my age is already working^^
But yes i am working, I've been working now for about...3 years i think, and well..it's not a dream job i'll admitt that but it pays pretty good:)
I clean at this office my mom used to work at once a week for about 2 hours and for that i get 120 swedish kronor, So it is actually pretty decent if you ask me:)

But anyways back to whats new..well..today it has FINALLY started to snow in my little city :)
I was starting to feel left out when some of my friends that lives in another city has snow and well..i dont D:
BUT NOW I HAVE SNOOOW!!!!!!!! WIE!!!!

AND well i though i should upload a oicture now thats been taken recently:)
the Picture is taken and edited by moi ^^

What do you think?^^ is it atleast..DECENT?o.o...
oh well..i myself actually like it ^^ so i hope you will too:)